YOU
dear you,
your words stung. they hurt. at least (or at least i hope) they were the truth. you made me reflect on my choices and decisions. i realised i didn't have to justify my decisions but i will anyway, since i realised why i did what i did. time. there was nothing to lose, only the friendships i have here. however, if the friendships couldn't even stand such an incident, it just means there wasn't much to begin with anyway. why try hard to keep friends who are just fun to be with? you don't. you find new ones since fun friends are all around, i try to keep those who are true. simple, i will let go. regarding THAT incident, sure he had to enough to lose, but he had enough to gain too. the choice was his or theirs. they made their choice and i accepted it, with a certain amount of grace to boot. i blamed no one, i backed off. even if i was to be made out to be the source and to be blamed, so be it. i don't care. i don't get you and your involvement. if you don't like how i handled it, i can't do anything about it because it was done. it wasn't the best way, but it felt like it was the only way at that point of time. i was tired of waiting.
me, i fight for my beliefs to try and to hold on to things, but i am to let go easily too. give me a reason to let go and i will. right now, being all about me and i really have nothing else to lose. i have lost faith and hope in people a long time ago. if the time does come, you'd just be another on that list. all that's changed, a longer list of people whom have failed me or i failed them. same difference. it's just a list of failures.
i am human. i err. i have emotions. i don't always make the best choices but i do what i think is the right one at various points of time. however, i wouldn't regret whatever i have done even if it was a mistake. simply cos' there's no reason to regret but i just wished, i had more knowledge. learn to let go were the words of some people. friends are ones which i have learnt to let go quite some time ago.
well, all in all, you said you need time to think, to sort this out. you will have your time, as i will do the very same. i sincerely do hope we'll end up on the same page, not one with an ending. you said, this isn't the jac you knew. well, i for one, know i change. i change because of my life's circumstances. i adapt.
emotional people make good actors. they call me one. i guess i am a good actor after all. oh, the drama.
your words stung. they hurt. at least (or at least i hope) they were the truth. you made me reflect on my choices and decisions. i realised i didn't have to justify my decisions but i will anyway, since i realised why i did what i did. time. there was nothing to lose, only the friendships i have here. however, if the friendships couldn't even stand such an incident, it just means there wasn't much to begin with anyway. why try hard to keep friends who are just fun to be with? you don't. you find new ones since fun friends are all around, i try to keep those who are true. simple, i will let go. regarding THAT incident, sure he had to enough to lose, but he had enough to gain too. the choice was his or theirs. they made their choice and i accepted it, with a certain amount of grace to boot. i blamed no one, i backed off. even if i was to be made out to be the source and to be blamed, so be it. i don't care. i don't get you and your involvement. if you don't like how i handled it, i can't do anything about it because it was done. it wasn't the best way, but it felt like it was the only way at that point of time. i was tired of waiting.
me, i fight for my beliefs to try and to hold on to things, but i am to let go easily too. give me a reason to let go and i will. right now, being all about me and i really have nothing else to lose. i have lost faith and hope in people a long time ago. if the time does come, you'd just be another on that list. all that's changed, a longer list of people whom have failed me or i failed them. same difference. it's just a list of failures.
i am human. i err. i have emotions. i don't always make the best choices but i do what i think is the right one at various points of time. however, i wouldn't regret whatever i have done even if it was a mistake. simply cos' there's no reason to regret but i just wished, i had more knowledge. learn to let go were the words of some people. friends are ones which i have learnt to let go quite some time ago.
well, all in all, you said you need time to think, to sort this out. you will have your time, as i will do the very same. i sincerely do hope we'll end up on the same page, not one with an ending. you said, this isn't the jac you knew. well, i for one, know i change. i change because of my life's circumstances. i adapt.
emotional people make good actors. they call me one. i guess i am a good actor after all. oh, the drama.
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