thoughts?

i hate giving titles to my entries but without these titles, it's difficult to track them.. ah well.

had thoughts about certain things while i was in the shower earlier. i realised why it helps to be around people who have similar dreams, aspirations, goals whatever you call it, as you. they motivate you to pursue your goals in that similar direction. having been in the company of my colleagues, the idea of going back to school, being a student seems so far-fetched as thoughts or intentions of being one is nowhere near their mind. they do not share the enthusiasm or the need of enthusiasm from others. you get my drift right?

why do people seem to want me to stay so much?? it's not like i contribute a substantial amount to society or even to their lives. me, a small being, would not change much to equation due to relation as a minute variable. do i even make sense? ha. furthermore, having such a huge mouth and telling people about my impending departure, does not help with my presence still around in singapore. i don't wanna be the person to be known as "ee, see this girl, keep saying she's leaving, then till now still haven't leave yet.." i probably am already seen in such light (this is a speculation, do not take it as a fact)

people are beyond my understanding.

n.b to friends whom i've neglected, i am a bit caught up with myself right now. when i get over and the stress i'm putting on myself, i'll stop the neglect. promise.