CHEESED off.

i am being polite in my choice of words lest i be told that my title is too distasteful and vulgar for THE PEOPLE'S liking. Not like I have a lot of readers either. ha.

anyway, firstly i'd like to say that the ONE and ONLY MAIN reason behind the depreciation (can i even use that word to describe the current situation, someone better let me know man) of usage of the English language, is due to my surroundings. I am not saying that I choose not to use proper English when spoken to. it's just too darn difficult when you have people spouting dialects, and broken, mixtures of languages in a single conversation. And guess what, I am applying for a degree in Communications. Hilarious isn't it.

oh, i digressed from my original intentions. to quell the (almost) all important question of
"why do i not want to continue and extend my contract, considering i am not leaving THAT soon"
i would like to say that, i am glad for two things. i am glad that i got the opportunity to join such a company and that i am glad that i am leaving. although, i can only say that this is my first proper full time job, i was shocked at the warmth i received from 'the family' that i joined. these people are the most fun colleagues i have ever known or worked with. they work hard. they play hard.

i decided against staying longer, because the drive/passion (which ever sounds better) is not as strong as it was. actually it's more of, no longer there. i am tired of the things i have seen. most of which, i wished were not prevalent all so in all our lives. by the way, if you figured out what i'm refering to and it's not in your life. PLEASE! teach me how you have managed to keep it out. and yes, i got cheesed off by a particular someone over some thing(S) which were supposedly settled. it is, on the surface that is. but hey, stuff like this is NEVER a one off thing. it's not oh, this chapter is closed, we can forget about it. if so, then what's the point in having chapters like in a book. don't they lead from one thing to another. everything has a relation to something else. action, consequence. simple logic, yet it defies us all from comprehending it fully. how dumb can we all get sometimes.

- this is a general assumption."we" rounds it off to the world. and yes, i
admit i am dumb sometimes, most of the times, you decide.-

one thing i have learnt so far, that will be in me for a good part of my life: manners & courtesy. a little 'please' and 'thank you' can do SO MUCH wonders. you should try it for yourself some day. and damn it, i don't owe a single of you my god damn life (of course, my parents not included). so watch your bloody mouth when you say something.

- should any of you, refering particularly to my colleagues who read this,
misconstrue what i have written or feel as though i am directing strongly at
you, and is very and extremely upset over it; should you not bother asking if i
am refering to you, which i would answer you truthfully in every aspect, then it
is your own fault for expecting the worst. then again, if you do think it's you,
even though i might not be refering to you, please pause and wonder, could
someone else feel like that towards you in the EXACT way? -

i know my punctuation skills are not at it's best and i'm a bit lengthy, do forgive me.