i dedicate this to you, janice..

it hit me, in almost two months, you would have known me for a decade.

and i realised that,
i don't know what's going on fully in your life anymore.
i don't call or speak to you as much i should.
i don't know i deserve to be still called your best friend.

but i do know,
that no matter how much i've changed, things have changed, you do know who i am.
that you will say things that i know but refuse to admit.
that i really miss you.
that i wish you could be here right now.
that you would give me a hug and tell me everything will work out and be okay.

i really wish you were here to do just that.