life + death

"death will settle itself. it's life you need to worry about."

yup. i am worrying how i will survive through life.
please death come take me soon, because surviving is too hard for me.
i like the easy way outs. i don't like challenges no more.
i don't like standing up for what i believe in anymore.
i don't like myself furthermore.
i don't like everything one single bit.
i don't like my life.
so take it and give me my watery grave.
and if i can't die now. i want to see the world die before me.
with me alone, i can't receive hurt and have to see through lousy lies.
the water. i want the watery grave.