on a whim

if you are wondering why my template is so grotesquely ugly, it's cos' i converted to the new template thingy by blogger. it is totally inflexible. ugh.

anyhow, finished watching curse of the golden flower not too long ago, and it kinda reminded me of what jermaine said about boundaries. oh well, i guess everyone really should stay within boundaries, makes life more 'correct' and less complicated. lest i get misconstrued, i mean it without any sarcasm of any sort.

i've always wondered if it has become easier for me to see people dying in front of me with my constant exposure to such an action. death scenes in movies, like the above mentioned movie, death scenes in anime, like full metal panic!. i wonder would i be as disengaged as i was watching the shows, or would the reality really hit me but then again, it's just viewing something. if that day comes, i wonder how i would react.

it's almost been a week. life looks like it's looking up. a little quiet. no more constant message beeptones from friends on what to do, whether or not to meet. things have settled down once again and the feeling is surreal.