excuse me, are you a...
strangely of late, i began feeling like i'm something less. it's kinda hard to describe, really. my point might not even be driven across.
i used to think or believe that i was pretty much articulate, but ever since beginning my journey of university days, it feels as though i've lost most of that ability. i feel like even though i speak the same language as these people, i don't feel understood. the inability to speak, to think, to voice. sometimes, actually on most times, it's as though i don't think as much or enough compared to my classmates. how does one think and process to what was said, while taking notes, and remember what is not understood to be brought up. that is multi-tasking to the hardest degree. ah, such high ranking difficulty.
aside from feeling lesser, i guess i'm beginning to fully take in the changes in my life, and that was from the past. this year might just be a better year. i just might go out once a week to see places which i know i actually won't make the effort to. take some pictures with some cool camera, think lomos, develop these cool photos and wonder how to post them up on my blog. do some seeing enriching for the soul.
aside from soul-enrichment, comes the question of life and self. i still wonder if my life would turn out good. i wonder if i'm on that right path of life. i wonder if i'm making mostly wrong choices, or have made some really bad and wrong choices, or even if i have made any right ones. i wonder if i need more to create that better self. these people whom i read off the news, magazines, internet, when interviewed seem to have things of worth to be noted. if i asked, "what inspires you?", what would your answer be? mine: nothing really, i haven't been inspired in a long while. it's like creativity, inspiration took a sharp nose-dive ever since i left school. i have so many questions, yet so many are left unanswered.
i used to think or believe that i was pretty much articulate, but ever since beginning my journey of university days, it feels as though i've lost most of that ability. i feel like even though i speak the same language as these people, i don't feel understood. the inability to speak, to think, to voice. sometimes, actually on most times, it's as though i don't think as much or enough compared to my classmates. how does one think and process to what was said, while taking notes, and remember what is not understood to be brought up. that is multi-tasking to the hardest degree. ah, such high ranking difficulty.
aside from feeling lesser, i guess i'm beginning to fully take in the changes in my life, and that was from the past. this year might just be a better year. i just might go out once a week to see places which i know i actually won't make the effort to. take some pictures with some cool camera, think lomos, develop these cool photos and wonder how to post them up on my blog. do some seeing enriching for the soul.
aside from soul-enrichment, comes the question of life and self. i still wonder if my life would turn out good. i wonder if i'm on that right path of life. i wonder if i'm making mostly wrong choices, or have made some really bad and wrong choices, or even if i have made any right ones. i wonder if i need more to create that better self. these people whom i read off the news, magazines, internet, when interviewed seem to have things of worth to be noted. if i asked, "what inspires you?", what would your answer be? mine: nothing really, i haven't been inspired in a long while. it's like creativity, inspiration took a sharp nose-dive ever since i left school. i have so many questions, yet so many are left unanswered.
- what makes me, me?
- would you have intellectual talks with me?
- what constitutes intelluctual talks?
- are my interests intellectual?
- is there really a point in being all intellectual?
- why is there all these fascination in being someone?
- why is being me never enough for me?
not in line with the previous train of thought, but i thought this ad from the series was pretty funny. thought of a caption too, even though lame-sounding. it's actually from the 06 season, but who really bothers anyway. it's one of my newly discovered interesting designers - claude maus
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