i need you

why do things have to be like that? things happen for a reason they say, i can't see what this one is. everyone's moving on, and i just want to be stay in that point of time. i guess it's lost and can't be found. don't get me wrong, life is just as exciting as before, but it feels like it's the wrong kind of excitement. everyone's drawing up boundaries and rules of what friends should and should not be. my problem lies with friends. i love my friends, i would even go to the extent of saying i need my friends, but i am willing to lose them as well. the irony of it all. people come and go, certain ones stay. but the very one best friend i need right now can't be found. i guess i don't practice what i preach. friends are annoyed with each other's insecurities. friends who are just annoyed with each other. friends who are annoyed with me. all this drama, did i choose it or did it choose me. it's time to get away from it all.

jan-o, where are you? i need you.