issues

ok, i admit, i have issues. issues with tons of stuff. label me paranoid, worry-wart, siao char bo, i don't give a shit.

trust for one. i won't say i won't give people the benefit of the doubt. but i don't trust people. i might seem very easy going and easily trusting, but hey, you don't know what's going on in the back of mind. i would like to say i trust people, but somehow i find that difficult. in this world we live in, it seems people have stop looking out for each other, they only look out for themselves. sad to say, i am a product of such a world. i am shaped and moulded by the very thing we ourselves try to shape..

depressing thoughts aside, haven't been blogging these past few days, cos i actually have a few activities outside of my little apartment. met a few of my neighbours in the building due to a mini bbq held by the lead tenant, he happens to be this singaporean guy. nope, not the annoying one, another one. yeah well, that was all good. i realised that ever since i've been here, i really don't give a shit about a lot of things. like having new friends for one, yeah i would like to have them, but if i don't find them, it's fine. i don't feel insulted or bad if these 'new friends' don't invite me over when they invite my neighbour. i'm kinda like living a branched out version of solitary life. it's like being a vegetarian and a vegan.. you know that kind of thing. oh yeah, one of my neighbour just turned vegan, i gave him a few days before he gives up. it's so difficult to give up eating meat.

anyhows, i'm glad my family reads my blog. hhaha. how weird is that. was advised to tone it down a lil, lest the anonymous comments begin again.. i realised it doesn't make a difference, these people will always come with shit comments or with nice ones. i can't avoid it. so be it. i put this blog up, knowing full well of the extent of rubbish i would get. i took that risk. i guess i'll just have to accept it..

easter break has started for me.. yay. but not much people to hang out with so boohoo.. ha. i just reread my sentence. such irony. argh, i want my ORIGINAL lifestyle back. so much more comforting. another time...