E.M.O

i'm in my emo mood right now. and no one understands. argh. someone once said,'maybe you need attention'. yeah maybe that someone is right. maybe i do need attention. attention which i can't seem to get. i wanna be there for my 'new' friends. but they don't seem to grasp the fact that i need it sometimes too. everyone's so into themselves. i have no one to talk normal mundane crap with for a week. wasted my 2 weeks worth of break. don't have any sort of motivation to get through the semester. gave up looking forward for my birthday. don't think anyone over here would give a shit. yeah. i'll buy myself a slice of new york cheesecake. sing myself a 'happy birthday' tune. and devour the cheesecake. care and concern for others it seems to very pally with chivalry these days. remember how ladies say 'chivalry is dead'? yeah that's where care and concern went. to the land of the dead. seem to be having way of a party of there to bother to come back. man, i'm talking crap. anyhow, fodder for my blog. that's what my neighbours are saying these days.'ooh look look look, fodder for your blog again jackie...' if i haven't mention enough, please do NOT call me jackie when i get back. once, twice maybe i'll see the humour in it. more than that, good luck. i wanna go back. daddy, if you are reading this, i wanna go back in june. ta boleh tahan already. people here are just plain odd, cold, and aloof. if i ever needed a test to see how my family and friends mean to me, this is the test. and i know how much they mean to me. yes, you my friend, mean a lot to me. i know i might sound like i am whingeing quite a bit. but hey, i am entitled to it. to a certain extent of course. to my wala drinking mates, please do try to keep one of your weekends free from 30th jun to 14th jul. hopefully i'll be back earlier. i know your weekends are precious. but i would really like to meet up k. went to the school library today. borrowed 6 books at one go. for the assignment due on mon. gimme some ideas,

weblogging has fundamentally altered the ways in which information and knowledge are shared. evaluate the 'how' and 'for whom'.. 2500 word essay. ugh. help. please.